The Love of My Life

You must see in me what I don't see in myself,
armor can only withstand but so many blows,
so few highs but so many lows,
my weaponry is useless against battles of which I've no control,
Compose myself so as not to fold
Motionless I play my stance....
become entranced on sights my minds eye beholds
And as far as I've come,
I sometimes lose sight of where I've been,
forget where I'm from,
lose faith in my strength;
like the tribulations of life didn't serve me a taste,
more like mouthfuls I've choked on when I ate in haste
little or nothing to expel from within,
life lessons are retakes,
my second chance to advance,
and I'm not failing the test
emotions change
my perspective shifts
As does the direction of the wind's flow,
unearthing my roots
shaking my core,
my choppy waters cast me overboard from myself, and my spirits fluidity becomes as restless as the breaks in the waves of life,
so I strive to become grounded... feel the pull of my gravity
stand firmly implanted in the soils of solid truths
Take a breath without choking on tears
My reality aims to settle into this place;this new found space where my chaos is organized and I have the control to dictate when and where I have the safety to fall apart...or rebuild

You believe that I can..and I remember that every day...thank YOU!

Getting FIT for baby!

That's hysterical! I'm practically below poverty line in this case!!!!

I started my exercise and eating regimen and will try my hand at the 3 Day Diet. It looks like something I can do. The menus are easy - although, it is not much food. Lunch is oftentimes crackers. Oh boy! Wish me luck - Sasha and her bright ideas!!!!

I worked out for 20 minutes this morning - light jogging to get my body moving and give me energy for the day!

Location:New York,United States

This is how I feel...Often!

Another Shot!

Things are tough at home, but I love my family and I won't rest until I share my chromosomes with the love of my life and bring forth a tiny human with both of our personalities. I love kids! I can't go on life not having another one! SO HERE'S TO MY BEAUTIFUL NOT YET CONCEIVED BABY!! WE ARE PATIENTLY WAITING FOR YOU!

Wrong....

.......story of my life!

I have a strange feeling that the....

WE DID IT!!!!

I am now, Mrs. Keska George Gadson! (pending name approval!) ..I am ecstatic about having a husband! I love him to death! Now baby Puffka needs to come into our lives! We did it!

R.I.P LITTLE BABY G!

Although we didn't know you, the amount of love bestowed upon you was the greatest love I've ever experienced in my entire life! You came unto me filled with joy and I hope you left the same way! I will never forget our little "flutter" and hope that you can forgive me if I was the cause of your passing!

Mommy and Daddy love u for always!

Excerpts from the kids.....

J: ......Did you have the baby already?
Me: No, not yet.
J: Well can you have it tomorrow so I can be out from school.


N: You're lying. How can you be pregnant? You're not even fat.

What's up, Doc?

Aawww..it's my little Flutter!

Doctor's visit wasn't so bad! Quick, simple to the point. Confirmed I was pregnant! (as if I didn't already know!) 6 weeks to be exact. Gave me samples of more horse pills that I am sure will go untouched. Gave me my first sonogram..(which I have no idea what is going on with it...but the BD claims to know)...and sent me on my very way. 'Till next time..We shall meet again!

All the SLeepy..

Hormonal a bit much?

Part of being pregnant - is that your hormones are running around like a Yankee fan without a head. I almost cursed out my OB/GYN Center -(almost because I had to let go of the phone - i had another call!) and told them what to sit on. My doc (who i had a love relationship with) - decided that she wasn't accepting any "NEW" pregnant women. This after telling me to start trying to conceive because my egg count was slowly decreasing. WHAT???? - Run that by me again - you aren't taking what now? (with a shovel in my hand!)

Anywho, I switched doctors the very next minute and Guess what Miss Loser Face Rodriguez - they are accepting new pregnant patients and they made an appointment instantly - for MONDAY!
Monday will be my sixth week and I will be able to hear the baby's heartbeat! What's even nicer is that the love of my life (the guy who provided the sperm) - is coming with me!!!

THIS PREGNANCY ROCKS!
(at least for now...until someone rains on my parade!)

Prenatal Vitamins...What the?

The signs of pregnancy....
...HORSE PILLS!!!

These pills must have been made by a man! If I see that man, I will kick him in the crotch, throw lemon juice in his eyes and run in the opposite direction. Only a man would make a woman swallow something the size of their thumb when pregnant or trying to get pregnant.

As if the horse pills weren’t enough there has been a new development in the prenatal vitamin front since I was pregnant.
Not one horse pill a day but TWO! BONUS!Now back in the day I would divide my prenatal into halves, quarters, sixths, hell I’d even stick it on a toothpick and suck on it all day like lollipop. With the introduction of the horse pill’s evil gelatinous brother I’m afraid that prenatals are dead to me. I'd rather chew tobacco!!

It's a Fetus!

I know...I've checked!!

Aunt Flo finally spoke to my doctor and told her she'd be on vacation for a few months, probably reappearing around July 4th, 2010 and bringing a package with her.





I just knew it this time. I am probably, definitely, totally pregnant. I thought it was definitely a food baby. My breasts have been killing me for more than a week - and of course Aunt Flo refused to show.

I thought I might just be paranoid, I must be emanating baby vibes. because my daughter said to me - "wouldn't it suck if you had a baby and now that I have my own room, I would have to share it!" :)

Aunt Flo has pulled the WOOL over My EYES

Interesting...This is why you can't trust people when they say they are coming - especially your family members.

Dear Aunt Flo,

You told me you were coming on the 25th of October - but lo, and behold, you haven't even called. Also, I made sure I confirmed your arrival and you made it clear - not once, not twice but FOUR times - to expect you!! Please give me a ring, at least!! ..or if you are ashamed to speak to me directly - talk to my GYN about your whereabouts.

Thanks,
KG

Top 5 Reasons Why I'm Probably NOT Pregnant Today

Reason 1,2,3 and maybe 3 1/2

Let me guess, no, no, no and wait for it...

No!

Top 5 Reasons Why I'm Probably NOT Pregnant Today

Reason 4

My name is not now or will ever be Shelby Lynn Farmer from Tuscaloosa, Alabama - Although, I was planning to go there for our honeymoon..or maybe I'll take my cousin!

Top 5 Reasons why I'm Probably NOT Pregnant Today..

Reason 5

I haven't tried to get knocked up at some of the most decent places in the U.S: The Grand Junction
This I read a while ago - just completely forgot how beneficial it is to people who are TTC!

Actual, pregnant crowd at Grand Junction Festival.

Yeah. "It's Your Love" by Tim McGraw makes me want to do irresponsible things too.

Pregnancies Jump After Grand Junction Festival

GRAND JUNCTION, Colo.—Whether it's something in the water or the grooving sounds of country music, the aftermath of what one health officials calls Grand Junction's "Woodstock" drives up pregnancies in this city each year.

Nurse-Family Partnership supervisor Wanda Scott said referrals to her agency from the Mesa County Health Department quadruple every year after the music festival Country Jam. Scott told commissioners about the phenomena Monday during a presentation called, "How are the Children?"

Scott said on average the health clinic sees between 25 to 30 pregnancies a month. She says five weeks after the festival that number jumps to almost 80 a month.

The festival ran from June 26-29. Performers included Tim McGraw, Clay Walker and Sugarland.

"That's our Grand Junction Woodstock," Scott said, referring to the 1969 counterculture rock festival in Bethel, N.Y., featuring such acts as Jimi Hendricks and Janis Joplin.

Grand Junction is a city of about 50,000 about 245 miles west of Denver.

Country Jam Director Steve Berg said the information surprised him.

"I certainly can't stop them from having sex. If we could stop it we certainly would," he said.

Commissioner Janet Rowland said education could help prevent unwanted teen pregnancies but didn't know what else could be done to stop them "short of putting birth control in the water at Country Jam."

Y Ma Na...

Dear KG,

Thank you!

XOXO,
Myrtle